Monday, March 28, 2005

Was I blind or what (Friendster)...

Sometimes when I've got nothing better to do, or if I don't feel like hitting the God-forsaken books (Time Series - designed to make life difficult), I'll get on Friendster and take a look at photographs of basically anyone, from friends and old acquaintances to total strangers. What some of these idiots write really baffle me (e.g."I love God nevertheless Jesus" - if you've not got too high a command of English, by all means use simple words and stop trying to be smart), but of course not as much as those who put up totally unattractive pictures of themselves (and obviously thinking "hey, do I look nice in this picture or what??"). I am a real critic of even photos of myself, and I don't think I look great in many of them, so hence I've only so far uploaded one which I think is decent.

There are these group of girls whom I used to...have internet chats with, and they seem to be pretty interested and very dedicated to "adding" friends to their accounts, and some of them have got over 300 people in them. What is interesting is just how easily people can forget you, especially once they get into relationships themselves, even if they once were your own partners, or if they once had a crush on you. I did not forget these people (I think I've got a good ability in remembering people's faces and their names, even those from "ancient history") but I just couldn't be bothered to contact them or "add" them. I didn't like them, they liked me. Pardon me for sounding egotistical, but while I'm too lazy or apathetic to actually search out who is it that is having a crush on me, these news always reach me via some other people. I'm sure everyone of us have had experience of these things before, do we not?

Maybe I am indeed egotistical by not making the "restart contact" move, but then again why should I? I did not fork out these girls' ICQ account numbers half a decade or so ago, they forked out mine. My brother must've been very disappointed that I didn't learn the skill of ignoring girls way earlier, but that's just me. People always are flattered when they've got attention from the opposite sex, so I guess I was just the more typical of people.

I guess it's actually really hard to have someone be a really good friend of yours, you know, those that come to you even if they've got nothing to ask of you, or even if they're not having crushes on you. I must admit I sometimes contact people only if I need something, but then I've always made sure that I give them a gift of appreciation after their help, or just plainly look them up if I've got the time. I really do! But it's these people that I feel I can learn nothing from that I will not rekindle any form on friendship with them.

I'm not sure how this will sound, but after four failed relationships (and a currently blessed fifth one!), sometimes I do feel it would be better for me that I haven't had gotten into any relationships at all previously. I feel it'd have been better if I had just maintain the "crush" status with these girls. My brother must've felt, why did that idiot get into a relationship so easily??? He likes these people just because they like him??? And to reminisce, I do think I was an idiot. A big idiot, who needed four lessons.

Which just makes it clear that people can forget you so easily. It's not a good feeling to think that someone that liked or "loved" you so much not long ago, can actually forget about you totally now. Hold on...they did not forget about you totally actually. Wait till you've actually got something they want.

I do actually have one of my ex-girlfriends in my account, but this one I broke up with her. So it was my fault. But of the two that left me, and of the few that supposedly had crushes on me, I'm not on their list. Learn this : people forget you. So forget them (I know it's hard), especially those that you can't learn from (which is most of them) and try getting new groups of friends yourself. I'm quite proud that my girl is not even subscribed on Friendster. She doesn't need to contact these lame people.